Tuesday, June 17, 2008

NEIU


It's a go, my friends, and I couldn't be more excited.


I met with the councelor a week ago, and felt instantly at home back in a school building. We talked for only a matter of minutes, but that was all that I needed.


A Master of Arts in Teaching Language Arts. I can't wait.


But first, I must be accepted.


I must pass the Illinois Test of Basic Skills. (Uh oh.)


I must pass the GMAT. (Double uh oh. I don't even know what that is.)


When I first arrived at NEIU last week, I was under the impression that if I was accepted, I'd be starting in the Spring.


Wrong-O. Fall. Yikes. That's 3 months from now. Holy shit. I know.


Ok, I lied. You can start taking classes in the fall without these tests under your belt, but you can't "declare" until you've passed. You're considered a "student at large" until then.


Whatever.


I'm currently in the process of finishing up my application. It's not long..it's not hard. (Tee hee hee.) But the last question on it asks why you want to join the program, and what you'd like to achieve. I started answering it immediately, then thought about it for a moment. It's a test...to see if you can write. i write purty, no? =) So I wrote it last night. And then my screen froze. I didn't save it.


Oh shit.


So, the genius that I am, I ended up taking a picture of each and every paragraph, and re-writing the whole thing, after I refreshed the page. God bless digital cameras.


Here it is...let me know what you think.


"When I was in the 5th grade, I wrote a story about my Mother's heart transplant, and won the Young Author's Award for writing. My Mother said to me, "Kelly, I don't know where you get your writing talent from. It sure didn't come from me."

As time passed, I continued to write. It was something I did mostly for school, but I still found extraordinary enjoyment in it. When I graduated from high school, I contined with my education at Northern Illinois University.

During my time at NIU, I was an on-air talent at the student run radio station. While on the air, I discovered my gift of speech, and would entertain the masses, (or at least those who listened) with my gift of words. After my first semester on the air, my mother said to me, "Kelly, I don't know where you find the nerve to talk to people on the radio. You surely didn't get that from me."

During my last year at NIU, I tutored freshman in their Coms 100 class, a basic speech requirement for all majors. I would observe speech after speech, and give these budding talents a critique of their speeches, and offer suggestions on how to improve. The students looked up to me, and took my advice to heart. They were eager to learn, and from that, I took immense pleasure. After my last session with the students, my Mother said to me, "Kelly, I just don't know how you can teach a bunch of kids you don't know." But I did. To me, it was natural.

During my last semester at NIU, it was time to write my senior thesis. After much debate, I wrote about Orson Welles' impact on the history of radio. I spent weeks upon weeks slaving over that paper. It couldn't just be good, it had to be spectacular. I wanted my readers to feel the "War of the Worlds" as they absorbed my written word. And spectacular, it was. After I turned in my paper and received that hard earned A, my Mother said to me once again, "Kelly, I'll never understand where you get your writing ability. I'll just never understand."

After college, I had the incessant desire to continue writing, so I submitted an entry to a non-fiction essay contest sponsored by "Glamour" magazine. I felt compelled to tell the story of how I, Kelly Courtney, the "Big Girl" of the seniour class was able to blow all the stereotypes out of the water and was crowned Homecoming Queen of the senior class. Upon submission, my mother said to me, "Kelly, I don't know where you find the strength and creativity to write the way you do. You make me so proud."

My mother passed away on a cold February morning in 2005. I spent the first two days walking around in a dreary haze, hardly aware of my surroundings. On the third day, I realized what I had to do. It was my ultimate calling and there was simply nobody else who could complete this task. I had to give the eulogy at my Mother's funeral. And that I did. I stood up there in front of that church filled with mourners, and spoke of the good days. I told stories of her past, and even managed to muster a few laughs from those who were grieving most. It was the hardest, most gut wrenching experience of my life, but I knew what I had to do.


As I stepped down from the altar, I could hear my Mother from somewhere in the distance saying to me,

"Kelly, I knew you could do it. I still don't know where you find it in you, but don't ever forget how proud you've made me."


I feel that I've been blessed with the gift of creativity and writing. I know that if given the opportunity, I would grow tremendously within the Masters of Arts program offered at NEIU. In doing so, I would be able to spread my knowledge, and teach future generations the beauty of the English language, and everything that encompasses it. I have a burning desire to teach, and I know somewhere out there, students are yearning to learn. I want to be the person to open up their hearts and minds, and show them that they can find their own talents well within themselves.


I want to do this for myself, for the memory of my Mother, and for all generations to come. I've had a burning desire to teach, and feel that the time has come.


I'm ready."


So there you have it. Not bad, eh? I'm serious though...if you can think of any constructive changes, let me know. I'm planning on submitting it by Friday. Just waiting on my letters of recommendation.


And a way to pay for all of this craziness.


Anybody looking for a maid? =)


Hmmmm?





Monday, June 9, 2008

Well I did it.

I took the first step and contacted an advisor at NEIU. Yup, that's right. Grad school. I had a bit of a meltdown here at work the other day, and subsequently posted on Buddyslim about how sick of Corporate America I am. Here, I'll play a little copy and paste for ya:


"Well, I’ve finally come to the realization that I HATE MY JOB! Ok, so it’s not necessarily the job, persay…but it’s the field that I’m in. It’s not me. Let me backtrack a bit.I graduated from Northern Illinois University in 2003 (Damn….5 years ago already) with my Bachelors in Communications, emphasis in media studies, (ie, radio and television.) My dream job was to become an on-air radio personality…something along the lines of a “soccer mom morning drive” show. Well, when you pick your major at 17, you don’t truly know what you want to do with the rest of your life. Sure, it sounded cool at the time…and it still does. If I was somehow presented with that opportunity, I’d take it in a heartbeat. Alas, that field is HARD to get into, and I don’t exactly have the connections to get my foot in the door.

Right out of college, I found a job working for a company that contracts mailrooms/photocopy centers out of other companies. I did that for about a year and a half, when I was offered a position to work in customer service for one of the companies I was contracted to be the mailgirl at. I already knew everybody in the building, and was happy at the idea of being able to use my brain, and not just sort and deliver mail. So, I started in customer service September 06.

OMG.


I am too the point where I’m going completely stir crazy sitting in a fucking cube EVERY DAY! Granted I love my customers, and my field support (ie…NOT the people I work with physically in the office. Talk about a bunch of back-stabbing two-faced assholes!) but sitting here in cubicle hell day in and day out is so completely un-filling.

I need a change and I need it now. I’ve always wanted to be a teacher. Nothing excites me more in life than the office supply store. Cool pens. Stickers. Bulletin board border. The thought of making an impression on somebody’s life…giving them the gift of knowledge…it’s exciting. I’m confident that I could put my skills and talents to use so much more successfully in the classroom…much more so than the office!
This place is sucking the life out of me, and I’ve just realized that it’s the root my my underlying unhappiness in life. I NEED OUT!!"

So today I contacted an advisor at NEIU, and found the exact program that I'm looking for. It's a Master of Arts in Teaching: Language Arts Program. I'm meeting up with her tomorrow to discuss the program, my goals, and how it all goes down.

I'm nervous. Wish me luck!

Friday, June 6, 2008

Duh.

What a difference a week makes. A whirl-fucking-wind of difference I say.


I have to give Allison the kudos she deserves first and foremost. When I mentioned that I was starting Medifast, she mentioned that she just couldn't grasp the concept as food merely being a source of fuel. I understood where she was coming from, but felt desperate enough at that point that I was willing to give anything a try. Ask me to cut off my toes and guarantee me a thin body? Sure. Sign me up.


That was a month ago.


Boy how things have changed.


After 3 weeks on that wretched program, I've come to grow a true appreciation for REAL HEALTHY FOOD. (Yeah, needless to say I quit that bogus program. Ok, maybe "bogus" is a bit harsh. If you can stand to eat 5 dehydrated meals a day out of foil packs, by all means, I give you total props. It takes willpower, courage, and all the strength in the world. That of which I didn't have. By the time I would get to my "Lean and Green" at the end of the day...oh lord...I was in heaven.) I will say this; Medifast-ing for 3 weeks, and Allison's comment always sitting in the back of my mind was all the fuel I needed.


I'm back to regular food. MF (as the Medifast people, or MF'ers ::funny, I know:: refer to themselves as) did teach me the value of a calorie, and how easy it is not to pay attention. It also taught me to keep an eye on my carbs. I believe that lowering them (both cals and carbs) to a respectable amount will definitely aid in successful weight loss. Americans eat TOO many of both. I've spent the last week learning to keep them in check. With real food.


I've never been so grateful in my life. And felt better. And exercised more.


Walking. It's my new passion. I'm in love.


Water. I'm currently at 121oz for the day. Crazy, I know. But it helps TREMENDOUSLY.


I lost 4lbs this week. We'll see what the scale says tomorrow, after I've had a respectable amount of sleep. (I have a problem...I just couldn't shut off Law & Order SVU last night.)


Food is fuel. Absolutely. But it has to be a QUALITY fuel as well. Your body CANNOT operate at peak performance if your feeding it crap. Ie, junkfood...or dehydrated packets of god knows what. (Ok, that was a stretch, but needed to be utilized for dramatic effect.)


It truly is NOT A DIET! It's a lifestyle change that must be sustainable indefinitely. I most certainly could not live on FOIL PACKETS forever.


Duh.


(Thanks Allison!)